Kate smiled and stepped cautiously down the ladder. They were in the downstairs bedroom of the houseboat, readying the nursery. She could tell that Tully was about thirty seconds away from throwing the screwdriver at the freshly painted wall. "Let me look at the sheet."
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Kate studied the ridiculously complicated directions. "We start with that long flat piece. It dovetails into that piece, see? Then you screw that part on there…"
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I don't know who writes these directions, but I don't think the assholes speak English."
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From her place in the middle of the floor, surrounded by piles of white sticks and boards and groupings of screws and washers, Tully held up the long, wrinkled piece of paper. "Be my guest."
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For the next two hours, they sat or stood, hunkered together and hunched over, putting together the most complicated crib of all time.
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When it was done, and tucked in place against the sunshine-yellow wall with the Winnie-the-Pooh border, they stood back and admired it. "What would I do without you, Tully?"
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Tully grinned at her. "My deepest apologies for that, but you'll notice that I have no bun in the oven. I don't believe I'm within eight hundred miles of a bun, in fact. So, not only can I have a margarita, but after putting together that crib -- a job which, I might add, is totally Johnny's and in fact required a scrotum to complete in less than a full day -- I deserve a margarita. And you, O fattening one, can have a virgin drink. Ironic, don't you think?"
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"I can't drink. You know that."
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"What's it like," Tully asked when Kate got up to put a log on the fire, "being married?"
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Tully put an arm around her. "Thankfully you'll never have to know. Come on, I'm making margaritas."
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"Well, it's only been three months, so I'm hardly an expert, but so far it's great." She sat back down and put her feet on the coffee table, resting her hand on the barely noticeable bump of her stomach. "You'll think I'm crazy, but I love the routine, the way we have breakfast together, each reading our own stuff; I love that he's the first person I see every morning and that he kisses me goodnight before I fall asleep." She smiled at Tully. "But I miss sharing a bathroom with you. He's constantly moving my stuff and putting it away -- and then he forgets where he put it. How about you, Tully? How's life in our old apartment?"
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Arm in arm, they went to the kitchen and made the drinks. All the way there, and back to the living room, where they sat in front of the fire, they talked. About little things, mostly -- the speeding ticket Tully got last week, Sean's new girlfriend, the class Mom was taking at the local community college.
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This was the subject Kate had tried to avoid. She'd known what she wanted to do from the moment Johnny had married her, but she hadn't had the courage to tell Tully. She took a deep breath. "I'm quitting."
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"Lonely," Tully said, shrugging and smiling as if she didn't care. "I'm getting used to it again."
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"And I do." Tully laughed and poured herself a second margarita. "Have you guys figured out the plan for life after my godchild's birth? Will they let you have a few weeks off?"
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"What? Why? They've got you on the best accounts, and you and Johnny are making good money. It's 1987 for crying out loud. You don't have to quit your job to be a mother. You can hire a nanny."
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That got Tully on her feet. "Kindergarten? What is that, eight years?"
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Kate smiled at that. "Five."
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"You can call anytime, you know."
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"But --"
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"No buts. It's important to me to be a good mother. You, of all people, should understand how much it matters to a kid."
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"I don't want someone else raising this baby. At least not until kindergarten."
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Tully immediately launched into a hilarious story about her most recent assignment.
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"And you think that will be enough for you -- carpools and field trips and classroom-volunteering?"
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"My mom went on every field trip I ever took. She was a helper in the classroom every year until I begged her to please stop coming. I didn't take the bus until I was in junior high and still remember talking to my mom on the ride home after school. I want my child to have all that. I can always go back to work later."
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"If it's not, I'll find something else. Come on, it's not like I'm an astronaut." She smiled. "So, tell me about your job. I'll live vicariously through you, so make the stories good."
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Kate leaned back and closed her eyes, listening.
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She was so lost in her thoughts it took her a moment to realize that Tully was talking to her. She laughed. "Sorry about that. What were you saying?"
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"Kate? Kate?"
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Tully sat back down. They both knew there was nothing she could really say to that. Tully still bore the scars of a bad mother. "Women can do both, you know. This isn't the fifties."
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Tully got to her feet so quickly, she knocked over her margarita. She put an arm around Kate, steadying her. "I'm right here."
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"I was not," Kate said quickly, but the truth was that she did feel drowsy, kind of light-headed, too. "I think I need a cup of tea." She stood up and swayed precariously, reaching out for the back of the couch. "Wow, that was --" In the middle of her sentence, she looked at Tully and frowned. "Tully?"
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Something was wrong; a wave of dizziness struck her so hard and suddenly that she stumbled.
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"You fell asleep on me. I was telling you about this guy who asked me out and when I looked over, you were out like a light."
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"Hold on, honey," Tully said, moving her gently toward the door. "We need to get to a phone."
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A dark pool of blood stained the cushion and splattered the decking at her feet. "Oh, no," she whispered, touching her stomach. She wanted to say more, pray to God to for help, but while she was grasping for words, the world tilted sickeningly and she passed out.
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Then she looked down at the sofa where she'd been sitting.
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A phone? Kate shook her head in confusion; her vision blurred. "I don't know what's happening," she mumbled. "Is this a surprise party for me? Is it my birthday?"
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Kate was conscious, but barely so. Her skin was as pale as an old overwashed sheet; even her green eyes, usually so bright, were dull and glassy. Tears leaked down her temples.
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Women having miscarriages could bleed to death.
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The ambulance pulled up to the hospital. Tully was pushed aside in their haste to get Kate out of the van and into the bright lights of the hospital. She stood there in the open doorway, watching them take her best friend away. Suddenly she felt the full impact of what was happening.
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"Please, God," she said, wishing for the first time in her life that she really knew how to pray, "don't let me lose her."
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Tully forced them to let her stay in the ambulance. She sat by Kate, saying, "I'm right here," over and over.
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She knew it was the wrong prayer, not the one Kate would have wanted. "And take care of her baby."
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It felt like throwing diamonds into a river, praying to this God that had never listened to her. "Katie goes to church every Sunday," she reminded Him, just in case.
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In the small green hospital room that overlooked the parking lot, Kate lay sleeping. Beside her Mrs. M. sat in a molded plastic chair reading a paperback novel. As always, she moved her lips as she read.
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"Four months isn't early, Tully," Mrs. Mularkey said quietly. "And people who haven't had a miscarriage always say that. It was what Bud said to me. Twice." She looked up. "It never felt like much of a blessing to me. It felt like losing someone I loved. You know about that, don't you?"
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Tully came up beside her, touched her shoulder. "I brought you some coffee." She let her hand rest on Mrs. M.'s shoulder. It had been almost two hours since Kate lost the baby and although Johnny had been called, he was on assignment in Spokane, on the other side of the state.
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Mrs. Mularkey stood up, moved next to the bed, standing shoulder to shoulder with Tully.
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"I guess it's a blessing it happened early," Tully said.
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Kate opened her eyes and saw them.
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"Hey," Kate whispered. "How long until Johnny --" At her husband's name, her voice cracked like an egg and she started to shake.
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"Thanks," she said, squeezing Mrs. Mularkey's shoulder, and then moving closer to the bed. "Now I know what not to say. I just wish I knew what would help."
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Tully spun around.
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"Did someone say my name?"
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He stood in the open doorway, carrying a bouquet of flowers that wilted slightly to the left. Everything about him looked disheveled -- his unshaven face was a contrasting palette of pale skin and stubbly black beard, his hair was a long, tangled black mess, and his eyes bespoke a bone-deep exhaustion. His Levi's were torn and dirty, his khaki shirt had more wrinkles than an unmade bed. "I hired a private plane. It's going to be a hell of a Visa bill."
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"It was a boy," Katie said, bursting into tears, clinging to him.
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He tossed the flowers on a chair and went to his wife. "Hey, baby," he whispered. "I'm sorry it took me so long."
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"He loves her," Tully said slowly. The memory of her night with Johnny had somehow blinded her, trapped her like an insect in the sap of a forgotten time. She'd imagined that Kate was his second choice somehow, his Miss Runner-Up to love.
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Tully heard Johnny start to cry with Kate.
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Mrs. Mularkey came up beside her, slipped an arm around her waist.
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They took turns being with Kate during the next few days. On Thursday, it was Tully's time. She called in sick at work and spent the day with Kate. They played cards and watched television and talked. Most of the time, to be honest, Tully just listened. When it was her turn to answer, she tried to say the right thing, but she was pretty sure she failed more often than not. There was a sadness in her friend now, a graying around the edges that was so foreign Tully felt as if she'd stumbled upon some negative version of their friendship. Nothing she said was quite right.
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"Johnny's with her now," Mrs. M. said, touching his shoulder.
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They took their coffees and went out into the hallway, where Mr. M. was sitting on an uncomfortable chair. When he looked up, his eyes were bloodshot. "How is she?"
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Separate paths.
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"Of course they are. Katie's married. You girls are on separate paths, but you'll always be best friends."
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But this… this was no second choice.
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"But things are different now."
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Mrs. Mularkey pulled her away from the bed. "Of course he loves her. Come on, let's leave them alone."
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For the first time in years, Tully felt like an outsider in this family. "I should be with her."
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There it was; the thing she should have seen but somehow hadn't.
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"Don't you worry, Tully," Mrs. M. said, watching her closely. "She'll always need you."
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"You do. Thanks." Kate closed her eyes.
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Johnny stood there, holding a bouquet of pink roses. With his newly cropped hair and stonewashed jeans and his white Adidas tennis shoes with the tongues hanging out, he looked about twenty years old. In all the years she'd known him, he'd never looked so sad and ruined.
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"Todd. And I'm not exactly in a make-out mood. Then again…" Smiling, she helped Kate up the stairs and got her settled in bed. Then she looked down at her. "You don't know how much I want to say the right thing to make you feel better."
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Finally, around eight o'clock, Kate said, "I know you'll think I'm crazy, but I'm going to bed. Johnny will be home in an hour. You can go on home. Go have wild, crazy sex with that new guy, Ted."
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Tully stood there a moment longer, feeling uncharacteristically impotent. With a sigh, she went back downstairs and started on the dishes. She was drying the last glass when the door opened quietly, then clicked shut.
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"Hey," he said, putting the flowers on the coffee table.
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It was still and peaceful out here. A full moon hung in the sky, illuminating the rooflines and reflecting in various windows. The distant hum of cars on the bridge was syncopated by the water slapping against the pilings.
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"I know," she answered, "but I asked about you."
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Tully got her coat and followed him outside. They sat side by side on the dock, as if they were kids, hanging their legs out over the black waters of Lake Union.
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"Yeah." Tully grabbed a bottle of scotch from the counter and made him a stiff drink, then she poured herself a glass of wine and went to him.
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Tully leaned against him. "You're lucky," she said. "She loves you, and when a Mularkey falls in love, it's for life." The minute she said the words, she felt that strange sense of unraveling again. Of loneliness that was somehow just out of view, but moving toward her. For the first time, she wondered what her life could have been like if she'd been like Kate and chosen love. Would she then know how it felt to truly belong somewhere, with someone? She stared out across the water.
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"It's Katie I'm worried about."
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"Let's sit on the dock," he said, taking the glass from her. "I don't want to wake her up."
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"How are you doing, really?" Tully asked.
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"How about an IV drip?" He tried to smile. "She asleep?"
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"You look like you could use a drink."
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"I've been better." He sipped his drink.
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"What is it, Tully?"
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She twisted around and hugged him, whispering, "Thanks, Johnny." He knew her so well. Somehow he'd already known what she'd only just discovered: it was time for her to move on.
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"Does that make me shallow?"
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"Of course. But you'll have to be patient. These things take time."
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As tired as Kate was, she couldn't fall asleep. She lay in bed, staring up at the peaked ceiling, and waited for her husband.
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It was in the very core of their relationship, this anxiety of hers. When things went bad, she remembered that she'd been his second choice, and no matter how often she told herself it wasn't true, there was a slim, shadowy version of herself that believed it, worried about it.
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"What life do I want?"
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He put an arm around her. "That's one thing you've always known. You want the networks."
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"I guess I'm jealous of Kate and you."
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"You'd do that?"
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"You don't want this life."
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He laughed. "I'm hardly the one to ask. I'll tell you what: I'll start making some calls. Sooner or later we'll find you a network job."
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He was home.
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It was a destructive neurosis. Like water rising in the Pilchuck River, it eroded everything around it, sent big chunks of earth tumbling away.
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She eased painfully out of bed and went downstairs.
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"Thank God."
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Downstairs she heard a sound.
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Tully twisted around, hugged Johnny, whispered something in his ear. His response was muted by the sound of the water slapping the dock. He might have laughed; Kate couldn't be sure.
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The lights were off. The fire was almost dead; only a faint orange glow remained. At first she thought she'd been wrong, that he wasn't home; then she noticed the shadows on the deck. Two people, sitting side by side, their shoulders touching. Moonlight revealed their shapes, turned them silver against the blackness of the water. She crossed the house quietly, opened the door, and stepped out into the night. A slight breeze ruffled her hair and nightgown.
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"You two having a party without me?" She heard the break in her voice and drew in a sharp breath to cover it. In her heart she knew that Johnny hadn't been turning to kiss Tully, but that shadow self of hers wasn't so sure. The ugly, toxic thought was smaller than a drop of blood, yet it poisoned the entire stream.
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Johnny was at her side in an instant. He pulled her into his arms and kissed her. When he drew back, she looked around for Tully, but they were alone on the deck.
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For the first time in her life, she wished she loved him less. It was dangerous to feel this way; she was like a naked infant exposed to the elements. Fragile and infinitely afraid. He could ruin her someday. Of that she had no doubt.
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Tully tried, as the months passed and a new year began, to remain patient and believe in the best, but by the end of May, she'd almost given up hope. Nineteen eighty-eight was not shaping up to be a good year for her. It was early now, on a hot spring day, and she was working hard to enjoy her spot as the replacement anchor. At the end of the broadcast, she headed back to her office.
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She was just sitting down at her desk when she heard: "Line two, Tully."
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She picked up the phone, pushed the square white button for line two, which immediately lit up. "Tallulah Hart."
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"Hello, Ms. Hart. Dick Emerson here. I'm the VP of programming for NBC in New York. I understand you're looking to move up to the networks."
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"Really?"
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Tully hung up and dialed Kate and Johnny's number.
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Kate laughed. "Of course I knew. He's been working on it for a long time. And yours truly mailed out the tapes."
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"That's the kind of ambition I like to hear." She heard the ruffling of papers on a desk. "I'll have my secretary send you a ticket. She'll call to set you up with a place to stay in the city and the date of your interview. All that work for you?"
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There was a half second's pause. "Oh, really?"
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"Next week, right?"
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"I'm in love with your husband."
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"Good. I hate to waste my time." He paused. "And tell Johnny Ryan hi from me."
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"With everything that's on your mind, you were still thinking about me?" Tully said, awed.
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"Perfectly. Thank you, sir. You won't be disappointed in me."
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Kate answered immediately. "Hello?"
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"He got me an interview at NBC."
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"So am I, Mr. Emerson."
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"We have an opening on the early morning show for a general assignment reporter."
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"You knew?"
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"I'll be seeing nearly fifty candidates next week. The competition will be fierce, Ms. Hart."
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Tully drew in a sharp breath. "I am."
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New York City was everything Tully had dreamed it would be. In her first week here, with her new NBC business cards clutched in her hand, she'd walked down these busy streets like Alice in Wonderland, her face perpetually tilted upward. The endless skyscrapers amazed her, as did the restaurants that never closed, the horse-drawn carriages lined up along the park, and the crowds of black-clad people who filled the streets.
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"This time I really am going to light the world on fire," she said, laughing. "I finally have a fucking match."
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"You and me against the world, Tully. Some things never change."
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She'd spent two weeks exploring the city, choosing a neighborhood, finding an apartment, learning to navigate the subways. It could have been a lonely time -- after all, who wanted to see the sights of a magical city like New York alone? But the truth was, she was so excited about her new job that even being solitary didn't bother her. Besides, in the city that never slept, you were never really alone. There were always people in the streets, even in the darkest hours.
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Tully had been hired as a general assignment reporter, which meant that she was assigned bits and pieces on other people's stories. At some point, if she was lucky, she'd get to cover a story the big correspondents wouldn't touch with a ten-foot pole -- the biggest pumpkin in the state of Indiana or something equally relevant. And she couldn't wait. When she'd paid her dues, she'd get a real story to cover, and when she finally got that break, she'd knock it out of the park. Truthfully, when she watched people like Pauley and Bryant Gumbel, she knew how far she had to go. They were gods in her eyes, and she spent every spare minute watching how they did their jobs. At home, she analyzed the broadcasts, recording each one on her videotapes and playing and replaying them.
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And then there was her job. From the moment she first walked into the NBC building as a reporter, she was hooked. She woke every morning at two-thirty so that she could be at the studio by four o'clock. Although she didn't technically need to get there so early, she loved to hang around and help out. She studied Jane Pauley's every movement and mannerism.
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By the fall of 1989, she'd found her groove and begun to feel less like a cub reporter and more like a young woman poised to make her mark. Last month she'd gotten her first honest-to-God assignment: she'd flown to Arkansas to report on a prize-winning hog. The story never actually made it on air, but she'd done her job and done it well, and she'd learned a lot that trip.
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She would have learned more in the studio, she was certain, if the morning show hadn't been in such upheaval. There was a war going on on-set and the whole country knew about it. Last week they'd taken a new publicity photo and Deborah Norville, the host of the early, early show had been on the couch with Jane and Bryant. That one picture sent shockwaves through the network and indeed the country. One article after another appeared; they all claimed that Norville was pushing Pauley out.
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Tully kept her head down and stayed away from the gossip. No rumor mill was going to upset her chances for success. Instead, she kept the focus on her job. If she worked harder than anyone else, she might get a replacement shot on the early, early show, NBC News at Sunrise. From there, she was sure she'd someday get a crack at the Today news nook, and from there, the world would be her oyster.
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Down on the street, she was captivated by Rockefeller Center at the holidays. Even in the fading gray of an overcast evening, there were people everywhere, shopping, taking pictures of the giant Christmas tree, ice-skating in the seasonal rink.
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The days passed like cards falling from a deck, so fast that sometimes they were just a blur of sound and color. But she was on her way. She knew that, and the knowledge kept her going.
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Eighteen hour workdays didn't leave her much time for a personal life but she still had Katie, even with all the miles between them. They spoke at least twice a week, and every Sunday Tully called Mrs. M. She told them both stories about work pressures and celebrity sightings and life in Manhattan; they responded with details about the new house Kate and Johnny had bought, the trip Mr. and Mrs. M. had planned for the spring, and -- best of all -- the news that Kate was pregnant again and it was going well.
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Today, an icy cold late December one, just like each of the countless days that had come before it, she spent fourteen hours at the station, then headed tiredly home.
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She was about ready to start walking home when she saw the sign for the Rainbow Room and thought, What the hell? She'd been in New York for more than a year now, and although she had made a lot of acquaintances, she hadn't bothered with dating.
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The view from the Rainbow Room was everything she'd heard and more. It was as if she were on the bridge of some great mothership from the future, hovering over the multicolored magnificence of Manhattan at night.
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It was still early, so there was plenty of seating at the bar and at the tables. She chose a table by the window, sat down, and ordered a margarita.
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Maybe it was the Christmas decorations, or the way her boss had laughed at her when she asked for the holidays off; she wasn't sure. All she knew was that it was Friday night, only a few nights before Christmas, and she didn't feel like going to her quiet apartment. CNN could wait.
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She was just about to order another one when the bar started filling up. Men and women from Wall Street and Midtown congregated in groups alongside overdressed tourists, commandeering the tables and chairs, lining up three deep at the bar.
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"Cheers," he said, tipping his glass against hers. "The view in here is better than I'd been led to believe." He leaned toward her. "You're beautiful, but I expect you know that."
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"Do you mind if I join you?"
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"I'd hate to think you were going thirsty." She kicked the chair across from her out just enough for him to sit down.
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"No last names. Brilliant. That means we don't have to do that whole exchanging of our life stories. We can just have fun."
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She'd heard those words all her life. Usually they meant nothing to her, bounced off her like raindrops on a metal roof, but for some reason, in this room, with the holidays approaching, the compliment was exactly what she needed to hear. "How long are you in town for?"
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She liked his smile and gave him one of hers. "Tully."
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An English accent. She was a sucker for that.
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A good-looking blond man in an expensive suit smiled down at her. "I'm tired of elbowing my way through the yuppies to get a drink."
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The waiter delivered the drinks and left them alone again.
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Tully looked up.
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"Thank God." He flagged down a waiter, ordered a scotch on the rocks for himself and another margarita for her, then collapsed into the chair. "Bloody meat market in here, isn't it? I'm Grant, by the way."
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"No, really. It's one of Richard Branson's companies. We're scouting U. S. locations for a Virgin Megastore."
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"A week or so. I work for Virgin Entertainment."
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"How naughty of you. It's a music store, for starters anyway."
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She sipped her drink, eyeing him over the salted rim, smiling. Kate was always telling her to get out more, to meet people. Just now, it seemed like damned fine advice. "Is your hotel nearby?"
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"Are you making that up?"
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"I shudder to think what you sell."
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