Clive got through his bar exams successfully, but just before he was called he had a slight touch of influ-enza with fever. Maurice came to see him as he was recovering, caught it, and went to bed himself. Thus they saw little of one another for several weeks, and when they did meet Clive was still white and nervy. He came down to the Halls', preferring their house to Pippa's, and hoping that the good food and quiet would set him up. He ate little, and when he spoke his theme was the futility of all things.
I'm a barrister because I may enter public life," he said in reply to a question of Ada's. "But why should I enter public life? Who wants me
Your mother says the county does.
If the county wants anyone it wants a Radical. But I've talked to more people than my mother, and they're weary of us leisured classes coasting round in motor-cars and asking for something to do. All this solemn to and fro between great houses —it's a game without gaiety. You don't find it played outside England. (Maurice, I'm going to Greece.) No one wants us, or anything except a comfortable home.
But to give a comfortable home's what public life is," shrilled Kitty.
Is, or ought to be
Well, it's all the same.
Is and ought to be are not the same," said her mother, proud of grasping the distinction. "You ought to be not interrupting Mr Durham, whereas you
is," supplied Ada, and the family laugh made Clive jump.
We are and we ought to be," concluded Mrs Hall. "Very dif-ferent.
Not always," contradicted Clive.
Not always, remember that, Kitty," she echoed, vaguely ad-monitory: on other occasions he had not minded her. Kitty cried back to her first assertion. Ada was saying anything, Maurice nothing. He was eating away placidly, too used to such table talk to see that it worried his friend. Between the courses he told an anecdote. All were silent to listen to him. He spoke slowly, stupidly, without attending to his words or taking the trouble to be interesting. Suddenly Clive cut in with "I say— I'm going to faint," and fell off his chair.
Get a pillow, Kitty: Ada, eau de cologne," said their brother. He loosened Clive's collar. "Mother, fan him; no; fan him . . .
Silly it is," murmured Clive.
As he spoke, Maurice kissed him.
I'm all right now.
The girls and a servant came running in.
I can walk," he said, the colour returning to his face.
Certainly not," cried Mrs Hall. "Maurice'U carry you—Mr Durham, put your arms round Maurice.
Come along, old man. The doctor: somebody telephone." He picked up his friend, who was so weak that he began to cry.
Maurice—I'm a fool.
Be a fool," said Maurice, and carried him upstairs, undressed him, and put him to bed. Mrs Hall knocked, and going out to her he said quickly, "Mother, you needn't tell the others I kissed Durham.
Oh, certainly not.
He wouldn't like it. I was rather upset and did it without thinking. As you know, we are great friends, relations almost.
It sufficed. She liked to have little secrets with her son; it re-minded her of the time when she had been so much to him. Ada joined them with a hot water bottle, which he took in to the patient.
The doctor'll see me like this," Clive sobbed.
I hope he will.
Why
Maurice lit a cigarette, and sat on the edge of the bed. "We want him to see you at your worst. Why did Pippa let you travel
I was supposed to be well.
Hell take you.
Can we come in?" called Ada through the door.
No. Send the doctor alone.
He's here," cried Kitty in the distance. A man, little older than themselves, was announced.
Hullo, Jowitt," said Maurice, rising. "Just cure me this chap. He's had influenza, and is supposed to be well. Result he's fainted, and can't stop crying.
We know all about that," remarked Mr Jowitt, and stuck a thermometer into Clive's mouth. "Been working hard
Yes, and now wants to go to Greece.
So he shall. You clear out now. I'll see you downstairs.
Maurice obeyed, convinced that Clive was seriously ill. Jowitt followed in about ten minutes, and told Mrs Hall it was nothing much—a bad relapse. He wrote prescriptions, and said he would send in a nurse. Maurice followed him into the garden, and, laying a hand on his arm, said, "Now tell me how ill he is. This isn't a relapse. It's something more. Please tell me the truth.
He'sall right," said the other; somewhat annoyed, for he
piqued himself on telling the truth. "I thought you realized that. He's stopped the hysteria and is getting off to sleep. It's just an ordinary relapse. He will have to be more careful this time than the other, that's all.
And how long will these ordinary relapses, as you call them, go on? At any moment may he have this appalling pain
He's only a bit uncomfortable—caught a chill in the car, he thinks.
Jowitt, you don't tell me. A grown man doesn't cry, unless he's gone pretty far.
That is only the weakness.
Oh, give it your own name," said Maurice, removing his hand. "Besides, I'm keeping you.
Not a bit, my young friend, I'm here to answer any difficul-ties.
Well, if it's so slight, why are you sending in a nurse
To amuse him. I understand he's well off.
And can't we amuse him
No, because of the infection. You were there when I told your mother none of you ought to go into the room.
I thought you meant my sisters.
You equally—more, for you've already caught it from him once.
I won't have a nurse.
Mrs Hall has telephoned to the Institute.
Why is everything done in such a damned hurry?" said Maurice, raising his voice. "I shall nurse him myself.
Have you wheeling the baby next.
I beg your pardon
Jowitt went off laughing.
In tones that admitted no argument Maurice told his mother he should sleep in the patient's room. He would not have a bed
taken in, lest Clive woke up, but lay down on the floor with his head on a foot-stool, and read by the rays of a candle lamp. Before long Clive stirred and said feebly, "Oh damnation, oh damnation.
Want anything?" Maurice called.
My inside's all wrong.
Maurice lifted him out of bed and put him on the night stool. When relief had come he lifted him back.
I can walk: you mustn't do this sort of thing.
You'd do it for me.
He carried the stool down the passage and cleaned it. Now that Clive was undignified and weak, he loved him as never before.
You mustn't," repeated Clive, when he came back. "It's too filthy.
Doesn't worry me," said Maurice, lying down. "Get off to sleep again.
The doctor told me he'd send a nurse.
What do you want with a nurse? It's only a touch of diar-rhoea. You can keep on all night as far as I'm concerned. Hon-estly it doesn't worry me—I don't say this to please you. It just doesn't.
I can't possibly—your office
Look here, Clive, would you rather have a trained nurse or me? One's coming tonight, but I left word she was to be sent away again, because I'd rather chuck the office and look after you myself, and thought you'd rather.
Clive was silent so long that Maurice thought him asleep. At last he sighed, "I suppose I'd better have the nurse.
Right: she will make you more comfortable than I can. Per-haps you're right.
Clive made no reply.
Ada had volunteered to sit up in the room below, and, accord-ing to arrangement, Maurice tapped three times, and while waiting for her studied Clive's blurred and sweaty face. It was useless the doctor talking: his friend was in agony. He longed to embrace him, but remembered this had brought on the hys-teria, and besides, Clive was restrained, fastidious almost. As Ada did not come he went downstairs, and found that she had fallen asleep. She lay, the picture of health, in a big leather chair, with her hands dropped on either side and her feet stretched out. Her bosom rose and fell, her heavy black hair served as a cushion to her face, and between her lips he saw teeth and a scarlet tongue. "Wake up," he cried irritably.
Ada woke.
How do you expect to hear the front door when the nurse comes
How is poor Mr Durham
Very ill; dangerously ill.
Oh Maurice! Maurice
The nurse is to stop. I called you, but you never came. Go off to bed now, as you can't even help that much.
Mother said I must sit up, because the nurse mustn't be let in by a man—it wouldn't look well.
I can't think how you have time to think of such rubbish," said Maurice.
We must keep the house a good name.
He was silent, then laughed in the way the girls disliked. At the bottom of their hearts they disliked him entirely, but were too confused mentally to know this. His laugh was the only grievance they avowed.
Nurses are not nice. No nice girl would be a nurse. If they are you may be sure they do not come from nice homes, or they would stop at home.
Ada, how long were you at school?" asked her brother, as he helped himself to a drink.
I call going to school stopping at home.
He set down his glass with a clank, and left her. Clive's eyes were open, but he did not speak or seem to know that Maurice had returned, nor did the coming of the nurse arouse him.